[what do you do?]

[what do you do?]

What do you do when there’s a strong urge to curse?

Seriously… When you are so angry and helpless that… that it seems like cursing will somehow help, just like leeches sucking on your blood alleviate the high pressure?

It does not help, I know that.

I did not curse. I resisted. But despite my best efforts, I couldn’t pray either. Well, I tried, but it felt odd to pray when I was that angry.

*Sigh*

Later in the day, after a walk and a few chapters of two novels, I was talking to a friend of mine about blogging and I mentioned something I never really paused to think about although now that I examine it, seems like the main reason I blog.

I love re-reading old posts by me.

Perhaps some may think it’s weird, but I really do like to do that.

Why?

Because when I read what I was going through and I look at those situation in the light of the present, I see that everything worked out.

What does not kill us makes us stronger.

I have a love / hate relationship with that saying. I love it because it’s true… But I hate it for the same reason. I wish we could become stronger without things that nearly kill us, but I guess that is not how things work.

Now that I look at the work situation earlier today, I still am frustrated because I want to do the best job I can but I can’t. At the same time, I no longer have a strong desire to curse or to throw something hard against the wall.

I know that a month from now, I will probably joke with my co-worker about it – how we were trying to get the others to see our point of view. Right now, I am thankful that God did keep my mouth shut because I would regret those words.

What do you do when you get really angry?

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