[plans and life]

[plans and life]

Last night’s group was planned to be about the lives of apostles.

That plan did not work out and instead we ended up talking about the meaning of life.

To say that it was a deep conversation would be to state it lightly.

I am so blessed by my friends with whom I can talk about such themes – and not just some jello-like talk, but a real rib-eye discussion.

Something that Fedor, one of my friends, had said stuck in my mind and I even wrote it in my notes.

No one is going to care what great plans you had for your life. What will matter is the kind of life you’ve already lived.

WOW.

I was glad that I recorded audio of that meeting, because after this phrase I spaced out for a few minutes.

I gave up real long-term planning a few years ago. Possibly when I have a family of my own, I will have to start doing that again, but for now, making long-term plans doesn’t really make any sense. I am not career-driven, so saying that I want to be a manager or something in 5 years doesn’t really make any sense to me. Saying that in 5 years I will settle down with a family of my own doesn’t make sense either because I don’t know whether it will be so. I have absolutely no idea where I would work / where I would live / would I live at all in 5 years. (Granted, that last one applies to everyone – no one knows what might happen in 5 years – no one knows what might happen tomorrow, either).

Yet still… that phrase made me wonder… What will people remember about me when I am gone? 

My friends at work consider me a fatalist because I don’t have an illusion that I will live forever on this earth (I do believe in life after this one, but we’re all gonna die the “first death” one day – who knows, it might be tomorrow, it might be in 20 years). They think that by thinking that I might die tomorrow I am attracting something terrible. Oh well.

Whether I am a fatalist or not, I definitely need to learn how to live “in the now” more, taking the opportunities to invest into someone or do something.

No one is going to care what great plans you had for your life. What will matter is the kind of life you’ve already lived.

  • Wow. Yeah, that’s thought-provoking. I have some “big” plans for my own life, but what would I be remembered for if I passed away today?

    Thanks for making me think.

    • You’re welcome. I am hoping to post more thoughts that evolved from that meeting. It was really meaty stuff.

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