[this is a whole lot bigger than that]
I am watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows again. I got the DVD today and couldn’t resist watching it – even though there’s no one to watch it with (mom decided to read the books first) and I have already seen this movie 4 times.
There is a part when Harry Potter has been taken away from his home (because it was no longer safe) and in order to protect him, six of his friends transformed into Potter look-alikes to draw attention from the real Harry. Harry was against the plan because he did not want his friends risking their lives, but there was no other option.
The plan was good, but they have been betrayed and some got hurt and Mad-Eye Moody was killed… and survivor’s guilt overcame Harry to a point when he was ready to simply leave…
Ron Weasley: Going somewhere?
Harry Potter: No one else is going to die. Not for me.
Ron Weasley: For you? You think Mad-Eye died for you? You think George took that curse for you? You may be the Chosen One, mate, but this is a whole lot bigger than that.
As I watched that episode again, I kept thinking that often I feel the same way. The feeling that maybe the world would be better off without me.
When I shared the thought with my pastor, even though I had a wry smile on my face, he didn’t smile. Instead, as stern as I’ve ever seen him, he told me: “Never EVER think that.”
And while the temptation to entertain those thoughts appears every once in a while, my pastor was right. God would’ve never created me (and you) in the first place if He did not have a specific plan for each one of us.
Also, while self-pity sometimes might look attractive (we all have those days), quoting Ron – this [this life, this situation, this world] is a whole lot bigger than that.
Never EVER give up. There is a mission for YOU and no one else can do it. YOU are important.