[desert storm]

[desert storm]

Lately my life has reminded me of two things: desert time and storm.

Desert time because there have been a lot of temptations and trials (some of which I have failed miserably)… The storm reference is because there are often times when I feel like I am desperately trying to swim to the surface, only to be covered with more waves. Thankfully I do get gulps of fresh air, even if mixed with the drops of salty water.

Due to the fact that my friends needed someone to housesit while they are away, I got a chance to get away from my routine and get some quiet time. I guess God also decided to add to that and decided that I don’t really need internet access for a few days which is the reason I haven’t been around.

On Monday, I decided that I want to listen to Lifehouse and put their albums on shuffle. A song called Storm came up that made me stop whatever I was doing and listen. It hit way too close to home, yet I don’t think I have ever heard this song before… Or maybe I did, but it waited until the proper moment to make an impression…

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form…
Water is getting hard to tread with these waves crashing over my head

I have no idea how long I have been in the “ocean.” It seems like it started about 3 years ago. Yeah, I know, long time… But that was from the very very beginning.

If I could just see You everything would be alright
If I see You this darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know that God is there to catch me when I fall… But sometimes I am afraid that I went too far away from Him for Him to catch me… Yet, He never fails me.

I know You didn’t bring me out here to drown so why am I ten feet under and upside down?
Barely surviving has become my purpose ’cause I’m so used to living underneath the surface

The purpose of this desert / trial / storm time is not to see me drown. The purpose is to teach me something, yet so far I have obviously been a bad student because I cannot seem to grasp the idea of the lesson…

If I could just see You everything would be alright
If I see You this darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright

Now everything is alright
Everything’s alright

Everything will be alright in the end. I know it, He promised. But I sure hope and pray that this storm will finally end and I will be able to finally breathe.

  • Hey there little lady. It is good to hear from you. Sometimes it is good to get away from all the distractions. Don't know what storms you are facing but know that I can pray for you. Love you and hope you have a fantastic next couple of days.

    • thanks, big brother πŸ™‚ i know i can count on you and thanks for that – it means a lot.

      today was indeed fantastic – a brunch with my pastor (we've chatted for like 2.5 hours probably – good times), then a lunch with mom, a dinner at our children ministry director's place (we needed to discuss what we are doing for the kids this Christmas on 7th of jan), and finally walked a dog πŸ™‚ awesome.
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