[forgiveness]

[forgiveness]

I was planning on writing another post, yet when I started writing that one, I’ve felt like God was telling me, “Hey, that’s not what I wanted you to write about. I wanted you to write about that other subject you and I discussed.”

*SIGH* Arguing with Him is a rather dumb endeavour (even though I still try sometimes).

This morning I got ready for work and checked my e-mail to see what I’ve got. Among other random e-mails, there was my daily GodSpeaks Devotional. Most of the days I read it when I am already at work, but I had time so I sat down with my iPod to read.

Then Peter came to Him and said, ‘Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?’

Matthew 18:21, NKJV

Immediately I thought about the events last week.

“Did you forgive her like I forgave you?” He asked.

“Umm…” I stalled knowing perfectly well that He knows the answer to His own question.

“I forgave you for a lot, you know.”

“Mmm hmm.”

“So?”

“So, what if she hurts my friends again?”

“Read the story again.”

*HUMPF* If He wants to make a point, He will make a point.

It has been incredibly quiet at work this week. The gal who drove me nuts and was the reason of my frustration is… nice and friendly. I have shared with my pastor on Monday that it makes me even more tense – I am afraid that once I will relax, she will start all over again (it did happen in the past). But for now, I cannot say anything else besides “Praise God” because all the prayers have been answered.

Am I happy? It’s certainly nice to work as a team but I guess I am still holding a grudge (otherwise He would not be trying so hard to make a point). I can’t help but remember that she has hurt my friends. Yet, He forgave me for hurting Him and His friends.

God, please help me let this go. Maybe it would beย labelledย as naive in our modern society, but I still want to believe that in every single person there is goodness inside. You said when You have created the man that he was very good. The goodness has been tarnished by the Fall, yet I know that a piece of You resides within every single person’s soul. It is there in me, it is there in Ilona. Thank You for using this experience to teach me about forgiveness and teamwork. You rule. Amen.

  • ๐Ÿ˜‰ thanks for prayers! they definitely work ๐Ÿ˜€ *hugs*

  • awesome post Zee! So glad to hear that you were listening to the Father when He was asking you some hard questions. Forgiveness will come because of His work in your heart. you know you are prayed for. ๐Ÿ˜›
    My recent post “Showtime!”

    • heh, Bill, i'd gladly not listen, but you know how stubborn He can be ๐Ÿ˜€

      just kiddin' – it was a great experience – even though He did ask hard questions.

  • Krystyna

    Wow, that's just incredible how God shows us his grace, as have read these very verse with my life group on Sunday and it never spoke to me the way it did to you. I feel really bad about being so judgemental to her, that's now what i should have done, thanks for showing me the right way

    • heh… we all were judgmental…

      glad i could help by sharing this ๐Ÿ™‚

  • j4man

    Listening to the voice of God is always a powerful thing – I am glad you have. Thanks be to God who is working through you.

    I am always glad when I do but wonder why I do not do it more often.

    • wonder why I do not do it more often – right on, Jim… we, people, are weird creatures, eh?

      reminds me of Todd Agnew's song called "Funny"…

      And You speak to me all the time
      Lighting my path with Your words of life
      But I can't obey You no matter how hard I try

      It's funny how a fish can obey You
      How a plant can obey You
      How the sun can obey You
      How a donkey can obey You
      Seems like everything can obey You, but I can't

  • "…Thank You for using this experience to teach me about forgiveness…"

    Just like a college class over a semester, perhaps this has been a season of testing and education for you. Can you imagine how shallow your forgiveness might still be (and how much more distant to God you'd be) were it not for this person and the struggle?
    My recent post It's Okay To Borrow

    • heh, yeah… season of education and testing, alright ๐Ÿ™‚ but i am glad that He does take me through those. it's not fun in the meantime, but it's good afterwards ๐Ÿ™‚

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