[take my life]
One of the songs by Third Day speaks to me every time I hear it…
How many times have I turned away? The number is the same as the sand on the shore. But every time You’ve taken me back and now I pray You do it once more.
How many times have I turned away? The number is the same as the stars in the sky. But everytime You’ve taken me back and now I pray You do it tonight.
Please take from me my life when I don’t have the strength to give it away to you, Jesus.
It was almost bedtime for my boys and I was walking toward the building where their room was. The stars were bright and the moon’s lighted path upon the sea beckoned my attention. The light in the lighthouse was already on, blinking steadily, calling out for all lost.
It was one of the exhausting days. There were lots of arguments with boys and trying to figure some minor disagreements among the counselors’ team. I was tired and looked forward to wishing the boys good night, turning off the lights in their room, and relaxing with a cup of coffee downstairs at the counselors’ meeting. I tried not to think of the fact that after the meeting I will finally be able to get my body in a horizontal position, close my eyes, and… ah…sleep.
One of the ways I usually keep myself awake is by singing, that’s what I did. Not sure why, but I started singing a well-forgotten but still great song by Third Day – Take My Life. I didn’t remember the verse words, so I just sang the chorus… After the third time, it became a prayer.
I don’t have the strength to give my life to Him. I wish I had, but frankly, I tend to get clingy when He wants to take things out of my life (even when I know He’ll substitute them with WAY better ones…). I trust Him, yet there are times when the old nature still wins and I want “my things.”
Please take from me my life when I don’t have the strength to give it to You, Jesus.