[interruptions and introverts]

[interruptions and introverts]

I hate being interrupted. My upbringing wasn’t too strict (in fact, it was quite laid-back), but with my incurable trait of watching people, I have learned most of the rules myself.

The fact that being interrupted sucks was ingrained into me. I don’t remember why. I just know that it bugged me big time. So because I knew it bugged me, I figured that other people might be irritated by it as well and as the result, I try to never interrupt (key word is trying, but hey, I am trying). I’d rather remain quiet than interrupt a thought in the very middle. There are times, of course, when I blow up and ooooooh, it’s better not to cross my road during that time, but it passes quickly.

A lot of people complain that I talk quietly. I don’t like talking very loud and it annoys me when someone is talking very loudly in the bus or somewhere. Partly because I don’t like loud noises (except concerts, but that’s an entirely different atmosphere) and partly because I just naturally speak quietly, I often have to repeat myself because people don’t hear me (or pretend not to hear).

As the result of those two things, I realized that it might be a part of the reason why I enjoy being an introvert. Well, not enjoy, but why I prefer remaining an introvert.

Yeah, it might be a surprise for those who only know me in the blogging world. However, I am an introvert. I tend to analyze things and I am not very outgoing.

As mom interrupted a story I was sharing with a story of her own today, I, being tired and emotionally exhausted from a long weekend (good, but just long), got upset about it. So I walked a bit faster to separate myself from mom and our friend who came for a visit in Moscow and pondered on the reasons why I am upset.

One thing that I realized was that it is exactly because I hate being interrupted and I don’t like interrupting others that I like blogging. It allows me to share whatever is on my mind and THEN receive feedback, not right in the middle of the story when I am about to share the most interesting part.

It sucks being an introvert especially when no one around really suspects it. I act my part and participate in events every so often (most of the time for the sake of my friends who are watching me and how I would act…)… I am tired. I am tired of being told “It’s okay to be an introvert.” I am freakin’ tired when people tell me “Well, this too shall pass” – GOSH – this is WHO I AM! I won’t become someone else just because someone wants me to be different. One time I even yelled at one of my best friends because she tried to tell me (after knowing me for 8 years I thought she’d catch on) that I am not an introvert. Told her that she should stop trying to change me. She got upset. I was too tired to argue and let the point get lost because… UGH.

You know, maybe I am boring for some people. Perhaps, I don’t go out as much as my friends want me to and I love spending Saturdays at home, sleeping in, catching on my energy level, and then spending time with mom.

I do not care. I really DO NOT CARE. This is who I am and although God is working on changing the insides of me, I won’t become an extravert. It is not me.

The point of the post: I AM WHO I AM.

I am Zee, 24 years old, I am a follower of Christ, and I am an INFJ – Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging.

Please do not try to change who I am. Only God has the right to do it.

  • Well Miss Introvert I thought about interrupting your posts several times but didn't want to feel your wrath through the internet lines so I decided to wait until the very end. I have now reached that end and will only say this (and this will tick you off): BE AN INTROVERT! BUT BE THE INTROVERT WHO LOVES JESUS AND SERVES HIM THE BEST SHE KNOWS HOW SURRENDERED TO HIM. Now…I am an extrovert. I live with a Phlegmatic Introvert. She would rather hide than take a side. I have learned to accept her. She has learned that at times I am going to embarrass the heck out of her-without even trying. we all have our flaws. I cannot be an introvert. I tell myself going into a situation "Be cool. Be calm. Sit on the sidelines." Doesn't work. So i say I am what I am. Deal with it. So…don't give yourself a stroke. 😉 Someone in Indiana loves you the way you are…blogging or not.

    • goof 🙂 feel free to try and interrupt my posts 😛

      haha, i so feel for Jo 🙂 but then, obviously you two guys have figured it out – gives me hope!

  • Zee, I am also an introvert. I think I'm an ISFJ. How is that for cool? Anyway, I talk quietly too. I hate being on a cell phone and someone says in teh middle of it "hello, hello??" UGH. Hate it. and when my mom was here, she'd always interrupt me. My husband does it to and then I completely shut down and get mad. I think its rude. And I have a sister who is an extrovert and people have told me that she is more fun, cool, outgoing, personable and blah blah blah. It's like I am not good enough either. I feel for you. I can relate so much to this post. Please do not stop being an introvert. I need someone else to relate to so I don't feel like a total loser.
    My recent post More than a feeling

    • yeah, i think we have discussed our myers-briggs types somewhere either on my blog or yours – or maybe i just dreamed about it… 😀 my memory is terrible lately.

      i hear ya re: phones… but then, i almost never talk on the phone – i am the leader in the office for being the one-who-talks-for-the-smallest-amount-possible-in-a-month. our phone bills are covered by the Chamber, so we can easily compare. most of the time, i talk for up to 40 minutes a month… total. sometimes more when my friends use my phone to call someone – i have 500 minutes in the contract, so i try to get the most of it….

      as much as i would've wanted to become extrovert, i can't 🙂 so i'll keep ya company 😀

  • I read this yesterday and now I think I might have a little to contribute.

    I was given advice many years ago – the advice was – drum roll please:

    Be Real and Be You. If you are an introvert – be the best introvert for Jesus!

    • 🙂 thanks Jim. that's what i am striving to be.

  • My wife tells me all the time that interrupting is rude and means you aren't listening and think what you have to say is more important… She reminds of that all the time.

    I really try not to interrupt. It just happens!

    I used to be very introverted as a self defense mechanism. Since I have come to grips with who I am instead of what people want me to be…I find myself being more extroverted. Go figure.

    My recent post Yes and Amen

    • i have noticed that i have become more introverted with time… or, more like, there are times when i am outgoing and i even surprise myself with it, but then it is followed by the periods when i just want to be left alone and just drink tea and write…

      i once read a description of my personality type that really made sense and let me know that i am not odd for being like that…

      They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people – a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious “soul mates.” (INFJ Profile, typelogic)

      i guess that's the reason why i keep swinging like a pendulum…. *shrug*

      thanks for stopping by, Dusty!

  • Kellie

    Way to go (i.e. I like your blog.) I'm an INTP, so I very much see your point. I would suggest you read the book "Introvert Power".

    • hey Kellie,

      welcome to my blog! 🙂

      hmm… i might try to find that book – sounds interesting! 🙂

      thanks for stopping by.

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