[picking up pieces]

[picking up pieces]

I read whenever I get time and most of my reading is done when I am going to / from work. Once I come to work, the book usually ends up on the table, and some of the books were good conversation starters. Just like today…

I am reading Plan B (like i already mentioned in almost every post…) and today it was its turn to be on the table. It’s not something I do on purpose, I just don’t want to put it in my backpack because who knows – maybe I will get 5 free minutes to read?

One friend of mine already asked if she could borrow the book when I will be done with it. I said sure, because it’s one of those books that is meant to be shared for the wisdom there is real.

Another friend (who claims he’s an atheist and sometimes teases me when I mention Church) looked at the book…

“Where’s Plan A?”

“Dissolved.”

He looked at me as if Plans A always work out. “So what’s the book about?”

I nodded at the book, “Well, it pretty much states it clearly up top. What do you do when God doesn’t show up the way you thought He would?”

He looked puzzled, so I summed it, “Basically, what to do when everything is falling out of hands.”

“I know what you do!” he grinned.

Now it was my turn to look puzzled because I did not know where he was going with that statement.

“You start picking up the pieces!”

I smiled, “Yeah, or just sit down right there, next to the fallen things.”

He grinned and walked over to his desk.

I sat there, gazing at the green Plan B and thought…

Seriously… How often we sit down next to our “things” and refuse to move? How often do we start picking up pieces of a shattered dream and don’t even see that He has prepared something else for us?

When we face the choice… Worship Him in spite of the circumstances, in pain, yet with Him, or abandon Him and remain right there, rooted to the spot, feeling as fractured as our dreams…

And have to confess… I spend a lot of time trying to balance those two when, in truth, those two choices aren’t meant to be balanced. It’s one or the other. Or can it be both?

  • I feel that way right now. My dream was to spend the summer with my kids and now I find myself becoming angry that I'm picking through my mom's things and when I close my eyes, all I see is how I found her body. There is no joy in any of it. I just want things to go back to how they were. I want my mom back. I don't like this plan. It sucks. I know if I was a stronger person, I'd see some great light in all of it. I'd see God in every detail and around every corner and in every bad thing. But I don't. I just see pain but maybe someday I will. For now, I just miss what life I once had…what mom I once knew….and i wish she was here to tell me that everything would be ok…and I'm not sure I'm happy at all with God's plan right now. How does one wrap there head around such a painful loss? I've never been good at this loss thing and this is no different. I just miss everything about my mom. I want to close my eyes and see her smile, but instead I see her feet in the hallway and her blue feet. This sucks. And sorry I hijacked your blog.
    My recent post I am lost

    • first of all… thank you for honesty, Michelle. seriously, one's got to be brave to share the problems…

      and secondly… just something i have read this morning during my commute… what Pete was writing hit home, so… yeah…

      I don't know if I can give you a specific answer in any of those circumstances, but here's what i do know. i've said this throughout the book, and i'll say it again. we're all going to get to that place where life hurts and our hearts are broken. we all are going to find ourselves in the middle of a Plan B. and here's the addition that may shock you: being a Christian doesn't change this reality at all.

      please hear me. i am not saying that being a Christian doesn't make a difference in our lives. i'm just saying that Christianity cannot always be reduced to simple answers.

      another book i am reading on and off, a Practical Workbook for a Depressed Christian, also talks about these feelings that you mention above… something that i have learned, from those books and from life… unfortunately, God's plan will be only visible later… i have no idea what He's got in store for you… i know the ultimate goal is great, but in the meantime? i don't know.

      oh and i don't think you hijacked my blog.

  • I know those things…I mean, I've heard them all before. My Pastor is John Piper and he talks a lot about suffering and things like that. It's so easy to agree with it when you aren't in the midst of it. I've blogged about it on my blog even! But now that's its happening, what a hypocrite I am. But I do appreciate the reminders and you are right. I just am annoyed with life and everything around me right now. Just ignore me πŸ™‚
    My recent post I am lost

    • Just ignore me – ha. sooo not gonna do that πŸ˜€

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