[random notes: God’s character]

Zee Gimon

I am Zee. I call myself the Observer because that's what I find myself doing most of the time - observe life and people around me. My blog is a Pensieve, similar to that of Dumbledore, used to keep the thoughts and random ideas that visit my brain.

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  • I seriously love your "anti-rambling" policy because this lady tends to ramble. Also, love the connections you make with life. God is certainly everywhere. Also I feel for you. My husband deals with the same kind of things. He wakes up super early because the AC guy is coming (they have to let in an AC guy often because their AC has to be on in the computer room or it overheats and that's bad for the servers). The guy will either tell my husband to meet him there super early, or he won't tell him and he'll call him and say "yeah, I'm sitting outside the office. Where are you?" Then my husband has to rush around and get to work. It's maddening.

    But back to your question. I think for me knowing that God is always there brings me joy. I hate waiting around for people. I don't like relying on others. I find them unpredictable and waivering. God never is. I'm just glad that God isn't like my earthly father. I had an alcoholic father who was only around when he felt bad and when he was dying of cancer. As a kid, I certainly didn't think much of it, but as I got older–I realized how much I missed by him not being there. I so much wanted that in a dad. He died when I was 11 and so I missed him seeing me graduate, get married, have kids. I missed all of that. He didn't walk me down the aisle. He didn't get to be a grandpa to my kids. And sometimes that still makes me sad. There were times I really wanted to just go to someone and say "fix this" and he wasn't there for me. God is not like that. He is always there. Maybe because I didn't have people there in my life to support me, it made me feel even closer to God because when you have no one, where do you turn? I turned to God and I thank Him for being everything to me.

    • haha, i sooo hear about the AC guy… been freezin' in the server room meself today. give a *knowing hug* to your hubby for me 😀

      relying on others… i used not to like it… but then i realized that i did not like it precisely because i sooo longed to have someone (besides God) to rely on. these days, i too love the fact that He is always with me.

      i never met my biological dad. all i got from his is a book (Maugham) and i know his last name (even though i got my mom's maiden name)… *shrug* i got my pastor who is like a dad to me and i got a friend whom i call dad (neither is married to my mom 😀 we're an odd family, haha)… i used to think that ah, i don't need him (my real dad) since he didn't want me and i grew up in a wonderful family that consisted of 5 women and a she-cat… not feminist, but we sure knew how to be strong, my grandma set a great example…. but now, grandma and my aunt are gone, my cousin lives in Germany, mom got married, and i find myself thinking more and more often about my real dad… what would be if i met him one day, or what if he would walk me down the aisle one day… or just to know that there's someone you can come to when something's broken and you want it fixed… but God gently reminds me that He already fixed the most important thing – my life, and He also sends great guys my way, too 😀

  • I forgot to subscribe to your comments. I like yours better….lol. Ok, now I'm in the loop 🙂

  • I don't have an anti-rambling policy on my blog either and it is a good thing! LOL. My favorite characteristic would have to be His grace (because I needed it, need it and will need it) as well as His faithfulness (when I am not He is).

    • just today i was walking home from a meeting, looking up at the big dipper (the sky was cloudy except for the spot where the constellation was), and sang Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) along with Chris Tomlin… Amazing Grace is my all-time favorite song…

  • Zee, you get extra points for saying that. I love that song by Chris Tomlin and love Amazing Grace, the song too. My favorite! Also, sorry to hear about your dad stuff. Have you ever tried to find him? I think that would be hard not knowing where he is and if he cares. My sis in law found her dad a few years ago and their relationship is kind of awkward. He has a new family with a 6 year old son, but still she is happy he is in her life. Hugs to you too!

    • 🙂 so how many points do i get total? 😀

      do you have Passion World Tour comin' somewhere close to where you live? we're gonna have that soon, on May 10th… gonna hear Chris Tomlin himself… ahhh! so excited about it!! i loved the Passion '08.

      nope… well, i tried googling his last name, the search didn't show up anything useful. mom doesn't know where he is and i am not sure whether i would want to see him… i really don't know what would i tell him… "Hi, dad, i'm your daughter?" sounds like a Brazilian soap opera 😀

      … talking about dads, just found out that my friend (the one i call dad, but who's not related to me) has got serious medical problems (hopefully, not cancer… they don't know yet)… dang…. not again…

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