[tired]

[tired]

The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. So it is with the body of Christ…we have all been baptized into one body by one Spirit, and we all share the same Spirit. Yes, the body has many different parts, not just one part. If the foot says, “I am not a part of the body because I am not a hand,” that does not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear says, “I am not part of the body because I am not an eye,” would that make it any less a part of the body? If the whole body were an eye, how would you hear? Or if your whole body were an ear, how would you smell anything?

1 Corinthians 12:12, 13b-17

WARNING: I needed to vent and write… So… these are just my thoughts, no judgement implied… Feedback is as always welcome, although i am not sure what i am looking for. i just needed to write.

That was the passage that I was reminded of today, as I kept pondering on the Church board meeting that we had. We are the body of Christ. We are ONE – the body does not consist of members thrown apart – it dies if it is torn apart.

We are also called to be the servants. Servants of God and servants to each other. I already mentioned Jesus washing the feet of His disciples today in a comment at Cycleguy’s blog, but it is also quite applicable here. He, GOD, served his disciples, HUMANS. If there is any story screaming loud of Jesus’ humility as a leader, then this is the one. And we are called to be like Him. We are leaders but more like the leading servants.

The main problem right now that we are trying to deal with is communication. The reason for the problem lies deep in the core of the relationships… some past hurts, some misunderstandings, some wrong assumptions. All this piles up to a quite high wall between the parties involved.

Whenever I had a disagreement or a fight with someone, my grandma always told me “Be the smarter one. If the person doesn’t want to cooperate, well, it’s his problem, but you should do everything that you can.”

Sometimes I wonder if I were the only one who heard that advice. I keep hearing “It is not my problem” from both parties and sitting on the wall, watching both parties though they cannot see each other, I think “Why can’t one of them be smarter?”

Yes, sometimes the past blinds us to the present. We remember the old times and we refuse to change a bit more because it feels like we already have changed and the other person did not. But everyone changes. People grow up, mature, get wiser.

The parties look to the third “independent” one to make peace. It does not work like that. The peacemaker cannot make peace when both parties just want to get “even” with each other. “It’s not my problem” – one side yells and hears “It is not my problem either.”

Whose problem is it? The one who is sitting on the wall? I wish I could help. I tried. Did not work out.

I tend to be idealistic. I try to live a life that God wants me to live and it is not easy. I try to apply His standards and they often don’t seem to work because I still am stuck on this side of heaven. I tend to think “But… We are called to be the body of Christ. We are called to be one. We are called to work together for His good.” And then we lose ours of precious time arguing about some details that could’ve been easily solved if only the involved parties sat down and talked. NOT tried to prove their point, but TALKED.

I am tired. Wish I was tired physically because at least then it’s a pleasant tiredness – you can lie down and sleep and wake up relaxed. My mind is tired. I am tired of trying to find ways through the wall. I am tired of trying to tell both parties to “Be the smarter one.”

God, how I long just to go home.

It is Your body. It is Your Church. Help us.

  • Pearl

    Just to let you know that I started reading your blog. May Jesus be your rest even amidst conflicts of ideas in church board meetings.

    • Hey, welcome, Pearl 🙂

      Thanks. I definitely need His rest.

  • Hang in there kiddo. There is work still to be done.

    Philippians 1:21-25 (Today's New International Version)
    21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22 If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23 I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24 but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25 Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith,

    • heh, you quoted the passage that keeps popping up in my mind every time i am thinking about giving up 🙂 and usually it makes me take a deep breath, slowly exhale, and trudge on, knowing that the time will come 🙂

      thank you! :))))

  • blessed are the peacemakers – keep trying to make peace and never give up.

    • thanks for the reminder, Herb 🙂 and good to see you here again 🙂

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