[content or not content: that is the question]
I keep thinking that my life is too good. I am thankful to God for all the blessings, yet I sometimes wonder why am I so blessed? What I mean is… is it just that I try not to focus on the bad stuff and grin when the good things happen? Is it because I deliberately choose to view my glass of water half-full and not half-empty? Or something is wrong?
I guess I am not one of those people who are content with their life and content about being content. I am not refuting Paul’s statement about “I have learned how to be content with whatever I have” (Philippians 4:11, NLT). What I am saying is that I am trying to constantly improve myself, my relationships with God and people… There is always something that can be changed or done better.
And when there seems to be nothing to change or improve, I get worried.
Another thing… I keep getting these updates about the persecuted Church all around the world. Over here, everything is strangely calm and that also worries me. We have grown content and lazy. There’s no risk in being a Christian and it loses its value. Maybe I am weird, but I kind of tempted to pray for persecution. It makes you re-evaluate what you believe in, why you believe it, to truly BELIEVE it… However, there are subtle persecutions, or temptations – to become simply content with where we are and take a break on the journey.
God, give me strength to walk on. The grass will indeed be greener on the other side of the hill, but I need to get there first. Don’t let me be simply content with the grass on this side of the hill, even though I am thankful for it.